Destination Unknown
The past 3 weeks have been an absolute mad rush, where I have been caught right smack in the middle of a hurricane of things, unable to move for the force of nature. I took a look at my calendar this morning, and realised that for the next 2 weeks, it is gonna be pretty much a repetition of the same thing. Every tiny block has been smeared on by dark ink, and the paper bleeds a tireless stream of exhaustion. There doesn't seem to be any ample space, and I fear that I might forget to breathe.
In the midst of all this, like in the centre of a whirlwind, I find myself still. All is calm, yet all is not. All is still, but my mind ravages a concoction of images and thoughts, each with spitting venom and piercing screams. In the midst of all this, I can see God. He is sure and present. He calms my soul, and oh! how does it weep. He is my shepherd, and I shall not be found wanting. He calls me, and I answer.
There was this particular one moment during the nursing camp, as I was running around the compound taking photos, I saw His glory. The magnificence of it was simply breathtaking, and I could not help but stop in my tracks and admire the beauty of it. It made me contemplate many things. Things that had happened, and things that were going to happen. For that moment, I was not part of this world. For that moment, I was not a being, but a sensation, an image, a love. My worries felt light, and they dissipated into the horizon. I felt ashamed, for neglecting Him, and even more so, that He still forgave me for that.
I took a look around, and saw my family. On the rocks jutting out of the sea, I saw my friends, both new and old, waving back. In the distance of the path, I saw NUS.
I have much to be thankful for.
There is much joy and love on the road ahead.
"And God said, "Let there be light," and there was light. God saw that the light was good, and he separated the light from the darkness."
In the midst of all this, like in the centre of a whirlwind, I find myself still. All is calm, yet all is not. All is still, but my mind ravages a concoction of images and thoughts, each with spitting venom and piercing screams. In the midst of all this, I can see God. He is sure and present. He calms my soul, and oh! how does it weep. He is my shepherd, and I shall not be found wanting. He calls me, and I answer.
There was this particular one moment during the nursing camp, as I was running around the compound taking photos, I saw His glory. The magnificence of it was simply breathtaking, and I could not help but stop in my tracks and admire the beauty of it. It made me contemplate many things. Things that had happened, and things that were going to happen. For that moment, I was not part of this world. For that moment, I was not a being, but a sensation, an image, a love. My worries felt light, and they dissipated into the horizon. I felt ashamed, for neglecting Him, and even more so, that He still forgave me for that.
I took a look around, and saw my family. On the rocks jutting out of the sea, I saw my friends, both new and old, waving back. In the distance of the path, I saw NUS.
I have much to be thankful for.
There is much joy and love on the road ahead.
"And God said, "Let there be light," and there was light. God saw that the light was good, and he separated the light from the darkness."
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