3 more weeks

i found out something about myself through the past few weeks. i guess i always had this character trait, just that it has tangibly solidified in my mind right now.( yes i see the oxymoron) i realise that when i am near a girl whom i think is pretty or beautiful or whatsoever along those lines, i will somehow always want to avoid her gaze or even look at her. also, i notice that i tend to speak less as well.
i'm not sure why.
but these few weeks i've begun to take notice of this habit of mine.
i remember watching this movie though i cannot remember which at this point in time, where one of the male characters had this habit of never touching the hand of the woman he liked.
to me, i would call it the inferiority complex.
i do't know why i'm rambling about this.