aye, there he was

Finally, i'm begining to understand what girls mean when they tell guys to 'be themselves'. i just found out that i really don't know how to act(no pun intended) when i'm alone with a girl. to some extent it may be due to the fact that i'm constantly surrounding myself with guys. but i still the real reason is that i haven't exactly been myself, meaning to say that the real me isn't out there. and to think if this were to continue, i would die without anyone knowing who shane was.

"what a frightening thing is the human, a mass of gauges and dials and registers, and we can read only a few and those perhaps not accurately."