Friday, March 10, 2006

serenade away, reaching around home

Hark, stop your tracks and listen,
For you will trance upon the sweet serenade
Of angels shedding crystal drops of tears,
Flowing silently into the moonlit reflected lake.

I stand in awe at the depth of sadness
That seems to transcend all worldly superficiality.
The beauty of the night, mirrored by my lack of presence
Perfects the serenity of inner turmoil.

Who am I to be so bold and break the silence?
The sword I wield disobeys my command,
as does my pen shed her blood no longer,
for no one must hear my anguish, no one must know.

Across the lake, all I see is a dark horizon,
Failing to inspire any hope or confidence in my soul.
It is a bare soul, an empty soul that should not live for long,
Desecrating into nothingness, along with the night to day.

Beyond that darkness, somewhere my lady stands.
Alas! for me she does not stand and wonder,
For her captain which i can never be,
As black is to white, and the moon to the sun.

Alone i stand in tranquility in the soft murmur of the sea,
As a nightingale in the distant tells me of silence,
And an inner joyance long not aflamed within myself.
A cold, bitter wind encapsulates me.

Sunday, March 05, 2006

hello sunshine

i feel good today. went to town to shop.....alone....for 4 hours.....further evidence of my apparent pathetic state of social life, but i guess it doesn't matter, because i bought stuff(yes this IS a cause for celebration and excitement...bring in the wine and give a toast!).

1)Jimmy Eat World CD
2)One Tree Hill Soundtrack
3)Athlete (yes for all those mainstream music trash junkies out there, this is a band) CD
4)Snow Patrol band t-shirt
5)Gilmore Girls DVD

so if any of you( i don't think so) were thinking of buying for me( emphasis on the 'i don't think so) any of those stuff (please get a life, shane), don't. (yes, let's end this pathetic monologue)

anyway, i'm booking back in tonight for the last time in bmtc.
this just gets better and better.

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

A levels

"Home. there was no other, absolutely no other word in the universe that could exemplifly the emotions that were flooding out of her at that moment in time. There was such a hospitality, a warmth of feeling and love so unusual in her facade world, her give-and take society. The people around her behaved like old friends and close family, embracing her achievements, engulfing her in hugs and drowning her in praise and words of significance. The sun shone brightly and the air was cool and inviting. The walls were of a velvet sooth and red long carpets blanketed the floors; warmth. All this, she did not see, did not hear, did not feel. She thought nothing of the brilliancy of the room, of the scenery. Her happiness was from within, and from the faces smiling back at her."

Nanyang Junior College
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