phew!

out.
minimal association.
guilty by association.
losing.
best female friend in NYJC.
relief.
superiority complex.
different light.
psychotic.
you're seriously psychotic.
it ends.
it has ended.
enough.

nonsense

when the sun shone her bright rays on you, and filled you with her warmth, you shunned away from her, and in your heart you cursed her.
then night came and the moon worked his best to reflect the sun's light and allowed you to see in the dark. but you condemned the moon for his graciouness, for he gave the world insight on your dark deeds.
rain fell when you were in the desert, but you cursed the heavens for getting you wet and making the ground hard to move in.
then spring came and the flowers were in bloom, but you cursed the beauty of nature, for your inner self was so corrupted and ugly that you could no longer see anything but ugliness.
and when help was offered by the hand, you jumped and ended it all.

on a lighter note, michelle says hi.

blood brothers

Watch your back because the next man is coming
And you don't know if the next man is dumbin
Survival of the fittest waht it isI got yo back,
you got my back and that's the biz
Blood is rushing through my veins
I got the power channel the energy
And with my strength I will devour
Sickening thoughts are running through my head
That's when I realize I'm glad I'm not dead
Corruption and abuse, the salesman of our blood
For the public's craving, existence in the dark
It's our nature to destroy ourselves
It's our nature to kill ourselves
It's our nature to kill each other
It's in our nature to kill, kill, kill
It was a dream and then hit me, reality struck
And now my life is all shifty and it all moves fast
Clost to buck 50 and we all stand strong
In respect to the family in times of our insanity
And through the words of profanity
I describe our dysfunctional family
Blood Brothers keep it eally to the end
Deeper than the thoughts tha you think, not a trend

the best

i miss khairul, ravin and ashraf..
sigh

pictures

hey hey
new pictures from mark's birthday are uploaded
they're on the right..
enjoy!

farewell

speaking of birthdays, this is what i'm talking about popcorn hypocrisy. they say one thig, and do another. they said they would celebrate my bday after the promos, yea, ok.....not done. seeing how qi and shin and jacq treat mark and showing how much he means to them by planning his birthday and stuff, i guess that's how much i'm valued in the popcorns. shin and jacq also made me feel very welcome even though it was the first time i was meeting them.what i would most like to be remembered when i die is that i lived a humble servanthood life.and for that, i am leaving the popcorns

mark voon

firstly, happy birthday mark!!! yay, you've finally turned 17. it's 59 months of crap now, 4 years and 11 months and counting man. sure we've had our downs, but most of the time it was the ups that we remember. you've my best friend, my homie, my homes, the only living person(ouside my family) that i know i can count on and the only person in this world that knows me inside out. yea come to think of it, only you truly know me. sky cam 6, our parodies on school and stuff, simpsons quotes and all that are just the tip of the iceberg of our common stuff. we've certainly come a long way and i don't think i would have made it past this year without you, even though we're now in different JCs. it's seems kind of a pity though that we won't be in the same school for 6 years, oh well doesn't matter. it's great that we still call each other up and talk nonsense till the wee hours of the morning. yea at around march i was begining to think that our friendship was gonna dissolve, but thankfully, and thank God it didn't. I really can see our frendship lasting till the end, at our death beds, i mean, we could die together, pretty cool eh?
i think the ironic thing is that we've grown so much closer this year even though we're in different schools. yea i love ya man...in a non gay sense...yup.
homies forever..

new camera

hey everyone! i've got good news! yay i've finally got my new camera!
it's a panasonic DE-929, it's blue in colour, it's slim, light and nice!!! yay i'm so happy.
world, here i come.
although there is a downside to this.
i can never ever say to my parents
"hey i've never asked for anything from you all in my life"
haha...oh well!

uploaded pix

hey everyone!
yea i have uploaded some pictures on my blog and it's on imagestation. you can just click the links on the sidebar (the rectangular animated link) and go there to view the pix! enjoy.
cheers!

Poem

As I gaze into your eyes so bright,
I day dream, sinking into the light.
In the dream, you're walking down the aisle with your Dad
Not feeling good, letting his daughter go makes him sad.
Finally, as your Dad gives you to me,
your love and beauty is all I see.
After we start repeating one after another,
from the crowd I hear crying from your mother.
As I place the ring on your finger with a smile,
I think of how I would do anything for you, even run a mile.
And while you place yours on mine,
my heart starts to shine.
As we both say "I do"
I stay calm and cool.
Finally, we're married. As the kiss is over...
I wake up at home with you sleeping on my shoulder.