Wednesday, June 25, 2008

L G Fuad

Alvyn, I've thought about your "list" question long and hard.

Awkward and Innocent.

Your heart is an empty room

You two not being there really disappointed me.

Because sometimes, the world is bigger than you.

Friday, June 20, 2008

Hear you me

Harry Welsh: You're leaving the men?
Richard Winters: They don't need me anymore.


In other news,
Kelvin got into NUS!!!
See, all you have to do is pray, and have faith. (:

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

What's my age again?



Happy 21st birthday Bro!
May the years to come bring us nothing but joy and gayness all around with the rest :D

The kids are alright

Other than my parents, only 2 people have called me their 'kid' before.

The first is Tee Lin Lin, my care group leader when I was still in Antioch, and the second, is Miss Kwok, my literature teacher in JC.

I deeply love them both.

Saturday, June 14, 2008

Warmth of the sand

Amanda was trying to convince me to go for NUS Arts camp.
The following conversation ensued.

Amanda: Why are you not going for arts camp?!
Shane: argh-uh (think a whiny sound) it's just not me.
Amanda: okay are you going to stay in hall?
Shane: Don't think so.
Amanda: Esther, do you stay in hall?
Esther: Yup!
Amanda: Look Esther's so happening!

At this point, my crap talking kicked into high gear, and I have no idea what gave me the power to spur the next reply.

Shane: Look, there are 2 types of people in uni. There are the happening people, who take part in all the events and all. And then, there are the people who take photographs of these happening people taking part in the events. I belong to the people taking the photographs, and I'm happy with that.

On the one hand, I can't wait to go back to school. The biggest reason for that would probably be the fact that the class guys (yes kelvin) and Angela would be sort of reunited again. Then there are good friends there too, like Emiko, Esther and Gwen to hang out with. Then there's Yong Kang as well, who is my partner in photography. And of course, for the studying itself, I can't wait to be immersed in history again, my escapism from this world.

On the other hand, everything else.

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

you get what you give

Yay ladies and gentlemen,
I FINALLY figured out how to include archives to my page!
whoohoo!

alright, they're on the right column somewhere below.
enjoy!

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

you're so last summer

One of the quotes I'll always remember from Band of Brothers was made by Lt. Ronald Spiers. He was talking to Blithe somewhere near Carentan.

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BLITHE
When I landed on D-day, lieutenant, I found myself in a ditch all by myself and I... fell asleep. I think it was those airsickness pills they gave us.

SPEIRS
Uh huh.

BLITHE
But when I woke up, I didn't really... try to find my unit. To fight. I just kind of... stayed put.

SPEIRS
What's your name, trooper?

BLITHE
Blithe, Sir. Albert Blithe.

SPEIRS
You know why you stayed in that ditch, Blithe?

BLITHE
I was scared, sir.

SPEIRS
We're all scared. It's because you still have hope.

BLITHE
You don't, sir?

SPEIRS
Here's the way I see it. The only hope you have is to accept the fact that you're already dead. The sooner you accept that, the sooner you'll be able to function as a soldier is supposed to function: without mercy, without compassion, without remorse. All war depends upon it.

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Friday, June 06, 2008

Scientist Studies

My solution to everything is to shut myself out from the solution to everything.

Anyway, I signed up for the NUS LPP last night, in a bid to learn French for either an exchange programme to France or Switzerland when I'm in my 3rd year there. Please pray for me!

Mel's birthday is this saturday! Hers is the first of the 21st birthdays I'm attending! Quite excited because I'm the noob photographer for the event, and epicurie's playing a set of 4 songs!

Track 09
(Mashed) Yellow and The Scientist
(Mashed) I'm yours, Collide, Superman, Anyone else but you
(Mashed) God of wonders, Here I am to worship

The answer to life, the universe and everything is 42.

Wednesday, June 04, 2008

Think there's something wrong with my tagboard

Anyone else but you

Think this was the greatest haul of movies I have ever rented from Videoezy. Each picture was thoroughly enjoyable to watch, and they inspired in me a great number of emotions and thoughts, which have been absent for quite some time now.







Particularly in Elizabeth, my passion for the age of sail, and in particular, naval battles in the age of sail, was rekindled. I remember sailing as a midshipman in Nelson's Victory some years back now. I could taste the sea salt, I could smell the saddled rum, I could feel the waves unleash their torrents upon me; and oh i reveled, oh how I reveled at the expanse of the unending horizon. Some days, the wind grew unkind to us, and we were sitting as a painted ship, upon a painted ocean. And when mother nature was merciful, we could see shapes in the horizon, then a thick growth of sails that formed a hostile colour. I was there when the men of Victory raised the colours "England expects every man will do his duty", as we strode gloriously into death.

A silence.

A muffled sound of cannons and broadsides. A rage of cannonades pierces wood and flesh. My war has begun. My war is now. My war is the same. My war is different. Call forth the Spanish Armadas, call forth the combined fleets of the French and Spanish. Our time is now. The cannot survive on our harsh English waters. Lads, I will see you sail to victory, or to Heaven.

And those were my last words.

I told Tiak Hui today that I was born in the wrong era. I think it is true. Nothing after 1945 interests me. I grow cold to politics and diplomacy. Red tape fades into a monochrome. Passion is a stale meat. We are all food for worms, waiting to die.

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As for Juno and 2 Days in Paris, I loved them because they gave me a goofy kind of love story, where we treat all seriousness with triviality, and triviality as sport. Both have happy endings after something major crops up. I enjoyed the scenes and dialogue in 2 Days, for obvious reasons (It's French! and yeah I just came back from Paris). The songs in Juno were really bare and naked, and these are the kind of songs that make you believe that maybe true love does exists, of course, after countless nights of paranoia, doubts, emo, the occasional 'i want to kill myself if she doesn't like me' and 'maybe i should just be gay' moments.

I guess after watching these 2 movies, it got me thinking about love, and in particular, relationships. It's a door I have shut out since some years back now, and it's hard to open it again. I think honestly, I'm not mature enough yet. My friends who know me can attest to that. I was having this conversation with Amanda the other day:

Amanda: So, any updates?
Shane: Hello! I told you I'm not into girls anymore.
A: so what, are you into guys now?
S: Erm no. I'm into friends now.
A: ??!?!
S: Yep, Friends. And friends have no gender.

A thought always goes through my mind when the word relationship is mentioned - have I already met my future wife? (don't lie I bet this thought swims through your heads as well :p) Following that thought is a whole mess of things that will not interest anyone except for people on the death row, and it ends with the conclusion, I shall trust in God to provide me with all things that go according to His plan for me.

Yay, at least this post ended on a happy note. (: