halloween 2004

hey everyone! Happy Halloween!
yesterday was a great day! the band performance totally rocked! Something Scary, you all rock! Special thanks to Ivan, Melissa and Raymond for making the whole thing successful. Ivan with his "jumping off the amps" antics and cool rock voice, Melissa with her insane guitar skills and her errie(in a good way) voice of amy lee, and Raymond with his high and crazy voice. simply spectacular! and not forgetting the drummer. me! haha... ok enough.
the dances were great also, and i got in the act too. though the people there witnessed first hand why i don't go clubbing. cuz i can't dance. yea. i mean yea i can do the gay pole dance with kelvin but that's about it. breakdancing, a dream in a distance.
i thought boon dressed up really well yesterday. haha...he wore goggles and a gas mask, yea something like that from linkin park's meteora album. totally rocked. emily came in a kimono or something like that. nat and dee came in clothes resembling 2 girls in orchard. michelle and jon were in their house shirts. and kelvin was dressed in beach wear. mae jian was in some cleopatra outfit.
it was a good night.

Mr. Wong Siew Hoong

This goes out to one of the greatest principals in Singapore. Mr. Wong Siew Hoong.
He was the one that got me into RI and gave me those 4 years of wonderful education and friends.
Without him, i wouldn't know Mark, Lucas, Hadri, Ji Hao and the many other friends that i have made in RI. without Mr. Wong, i would never know the true joy of playing soccer barefoot on the astro turf on a rainy day. Without him, i probably would never join choir and thus the huge passion that i have for the arts would have have been initially generated. Without Mr. Wong, i wouldn't have gone to England in sec 1 and 2 and Germany in sec 3. without him, i would never know the true joy of heartfelt applause after every song. all the seemingly simple things in my secondary school life crescendos to a chorus of beautiful and melodious music, without which my life would be really boring and mundane.
This is to Mr. Wong, a simple heartfelt thanks and will have an effect in the same way as in mine. Best wishes, Sir, to your future endevours and may the Rafflesian Spirit always be with you. Thank you for all you have done for me. There would be no music in my life without your help. Auspicium Melioris Aevi.
"Let me start by telling you a story...."
this one's for you.

promos

hey all..
well, i have just finished and collected the civil mandarin examinations of vietnam and here are the results:
Lit---A...hmm...i think the europeans will employ me because of this..
History---C....hmm not bad ..
Econs----D...haha finally i got an A level pass !!
GP---C5...haha sucky
Chinese---C6...haha....i'm not cheena!
well overall, i maintain lit, maintain history, improved econs, deproved GP, and deproved chinese...man oh man...to God be the glory..
i'm going to see the french minister now...and also to confront him about PW and chinese..

break down

i think the lyrics to this song is certainly worth a read. it's called "just a ride" by "jem"


Life, it's ever so strange
It's so full of change
Think that you've worked it outthen BANG
Right out of the blue
Something happens to you
To throw you off courseand then you
BreakdownYeah you breakdown
Well don't you breakdownListen to me
BecauseIt's just a ride, it's just a ride
no need to run, no need to hide
It'll take you round and round
Sometimes you're upsometimes you're down
It's just a ride, it's just a ride
don't be scared don't hide your eyes
It may feel so real inside but don't forget
it's just a ride
Truth, we don't wanna hear
It's too much to take
Don't like to feel out of control
So we make our plans
Ten times a day
And when they don't go our way we
BreakdownYeah we breakdown
Well don't you breakdownListen to me
BecauseIt's just a ride, it's just a ride
no need to run, no need to hide
It'll take you round and round
Sometimes you're up sometimes you're down
It's just a ride, it's just a ride don't be scare
ddon't hide your eyes
It may feel so real inside
but don't forget it's just a ride
Slowly, oh so very slowly except that
there's no getting off
So live it, just gotta go with it
coz this ride's, never gonna stop

if i fail history, i think i'm just gonna break down, and never come up again, cuz history is all i'm living for. seems an irony in itself. man...i hate promos...

they are opening their eyes

well, well, well. the day of awakening is finally nigh. the sun's bright rays are finally begining to slowly seep into the eyes of the circle. the flower blooms out in all its glory. what a beautiful sight to finally see your ugly side. the circle is disbanding and one by one we are leaving. some have already left. the waves crash with a melodious chorus, just like the reality of the situation that will soon crash down on you. it will be beautiful. and the water will wash away the dirt and hopefully clean your insides. if not, you would be swept away, away from existance, never to return.
listen to the wind at night, and hear how she cries for you and not over you. the howls and growls are not mindless motions with a lack of emotions. listen to them and realise that they are trying to tell you something. but you would not listen. and the wind cannot do more than that, for she cannot speak, she cannot point, she cannot touch, she is invisible.
spring was in full blossom and the air tasted sweet and innocent.
summer was high in intensity and heat. but the heat was bearable and we got through.
autumn was the season it began to fade, just like the leaves on the trees.
winter is approaching and the blood will freeze and all feeling lost. all senses lost.
you know, when the cycle started out, it was actually spinning smoothly and it was going somewhere. the bicycle went places. but you had to make modifications and install all those unnecessary parts and made the bicycle heavier. the road grew tedious and weary and heavy. finally the bicycle could take it no longer and it crashed right on the road. some parts were still in tact, and others, well, they flew far, far away..

more top 3s

Top 3 cartoons!!
3. Batman
2. Dave the Barbarian
1. The Simpsons

Top 3 shows!!
3. The amazing race
2. The OC
1. Gilmore Girls!

Top 3 Movies!!
3. Finding Nemo
2. U-571
1. The Lord of The Rings!!

top 3

Top 3 worst feelings in the world
3. Having everyone stare at you looking for direction and instruction but you yourself knowing none.
2. Knowing that you can never tell the girl you like how you feel about her.
1. Living without God.

3 things i want for Christmas!!(yes i know it's 2 months away...)
5. a new camera
4. some new shirts
3. surprises

hmm...i didn't get anything...Anything..on my birthday except a card emily gave me..

one day more

hmm i just had a thought. i would really like to do a real in depth analysis on "The Rime of The Ancient Mariner", without redundant and stupid exam contraints which limits one's creativity and capacity to even bring a new insight on the poem.
there's just so much, too much, to talk about in the poem. and the poem itself is just so beautiful and i would even venture so far as to say it's perfect.
holding hands. that first hug. that first kiss.
hmm it's gonna be over in less than 24 hours. the promos will be over, gone, good riddance.
it's something unpredictable
but in the end is right
i hope you had the time of your life.
hah...time of my life...yea rite. i don't think i would ever want to go through it again. though i have to go to hell and back, hoping that i would not be imprisoned by the firery bars.
God has been faithful. HE has been with me for the whole of the exams and has blessed me with the focusness of mind to do my essays and the strength to complete my tasks. i believe in what i ask for in Jesus' name, and yes, i believe i will do as good as God wants me to, all for his great plan.
"Nor dim nor red, like God's own head,
the glorious sun uprist"

the best deceptions

I heard about your trip.
I heard about your souvenirs.
I heard about the cool breeze, in the cool nights,
and the cool guys that you spent them with.
Well I guess I should have heard of them from you.
I guess I should have heard of them from you.

Don't you see, don't you see,
that the charade is over?
And all the "Best Deceptions" and "Clever Cover Story" awards go to you.
So kiss me hard' cause this will be the last time that I let you.
You will be back someday
and this awkward kiss that screams of other people's lips
will be of service to keeping you away.

I heard about your regrets.
I heard that you were feeling sorry.
I heard from someone that you wish
you could set things right between us.
Well I guess I should have heard of them from you.
I guess I should have heard of them from you.

I'm waiting for blood to flow to my fingers,
I'll be all right when my hands get warm.
Ignoring the phone, I'd rather say nothing.
I'd rather you'd never heard my voice.
You're calling too late too late
to be gracious you do not warrant long goodbyes.

1 day down

one day more
another day, another destiny
this never ending road to calvary
these men who seems to know my crime will surely come a second time
one day more
i did not live until today
how can i live when we are parted
one day more
tomorrow we'll be worlds away
and yet with you my life has started
one day more before the storm
at the barricades of freedom
where our ranks begin to form
will you take your place with me
the time in now
the place is here.
tomorrow we'll discover what our God in Heaven has in store
one more dawn
one more day
one day more.

ok a day of promotional exams is over. well, i had gp and econs essay today. i think the gp essay was ok...and the comprehension was worse than ok...and to top it all off, the econs essay was worse than worse than ok. well...haha ok i'm joking..i thought all the papers today were ok.
i look to Heaven and pray to God, keeping him in my heart. believing in what i pray for.

anxiety. stress. distractions. crushes. long. little time. no time. 40 days. gone. forever. oppotunity. take. now. regret. no more. 4 more days. rest. sunday. go back. stay there. consistency. trust. Trust. TRUST.

trust and obey
for there's no other way
to be happy in Jesus
but to trust and obey.

O the wonderful cross, O the wonderful cross
bids me come and die
and find that i may truly live.

a proposition

mark, if you do get retained,
come to NY.
i will retain with you.

take a moment.

you know i was just reading someone's blog and her entries really struck me. they're really like wilde's epigrams, changing a normal view of a relationship to a distinct and unique one.
there's this line which particularly strikes me
"For now, i'm keeping him till he finds a better one, till a better one finds him."
the sentence itself itself is really sad, but yet, in that array of sadness, there's a huge hidden beauty behind it. it's unexplainable, really impossible to put it down in words, but it;s just beautiful, like a sunset yonder the horizon, rain falling in the sahara and atlantis rising.
i browsed through the pictures, and saw some stupid pictures of raymond, i mean the pictures were not stupid, but raymond looked stupid in them...haha... joke joke.
and i saw this picture on what she did for her boyfriend on his bday i think. candles and all.
are my eyes playing tricks on me? does such a person exist? does such a love still exist in this world? does such power of the heart sill shows itself in all its glory? is there still such sweetness in such a bitter world? fate...2 souls coming together. will...2 souls helping themselves come together.

bliss. wind. sun. light in darkness. warmth. death. life. sickness. health. forever. and ever. never to part. fate. destiny. i love you. protection. love. Love. LOVE.
i would be lucky...i would be lucky.