Love

I honestly don't know what love is. Well, here's what i've got so far.

Love is God.
Love is my family. I love my family.
Love is 04A1A.
Love is NYJC.
Love is dragging your ass to town on a saturday afternoon even though you woke up at 2pm.
Love is dragging your butt to town at 4pm even though you have to leave by 5pm.
Love is setting aside one day for people you love, so often and so much so that the procedure becomes you.
Love is never letting go of the good memories of the past.
Love is wishing they'd come back.
Love is crying your guts out when you know that soon, things are not gonna be the same.
Love is crying your guts out inside, because you know we know you are.
I love soccer.
I love Manchester United.
Love is NOT all about constant quarreling as i once thought.
Love is emo. (you guys knew this was coming)
Love is running down 3 busy shopping streets in the middle of a foreign land carrying truckloads of shopping bags, looking like complete fools.
Love is being the life of the gang. (Daniel)
Love is watching a live performance.
Love is the sea.
Love is Pulau Hantu and Sisters' Island.
Love is my 27.4km route march, as well as my 4 days 3 nights sea expedition.
Love is not forgetting.

3

3 sets of awesome news coming in today!

1) Manchester United beat Everton 4-2 in stunning fashion. They came back from 2-0 down in a match where the resilience and determination of champions were showcased. Rooney got a goal against his old club, and so did Phil Neville, although scoring for the wrong side this time. I feel sorry for him. He was, and (to me) will always be a red devil.

2) Chelsea drew 2-2 with Bolton. The gap is now 5 points. Liverpool beckons on wednesday, and Arsenal will wage war on Saturday. Napoleon, you are in Russia.

3) Jade Seah has been given an endorsement deal with Nivea Visage!

Jade Seah

I have just received devastating news....

The current season of Sweets for my sweet has ended!!
That means, after this Sunday's Dance Floor finals, Jade Seah will not be on tv for a while!! (at least till the next season of Sweets for my sweet, i hope (: )

In light of the "Christmas is almost tomorrow" season, here is my one Christmas wish this year.
To meet Jade Seah.

Everyone, you can stop rolling your eyes now thanks.

Timmy at Timbre!

Class peeps are going to Timbre tomorrow night!
Can't wait!

p.s. you see, either way i move, i am condemned. Tell me how i can paint the silence. Just give me a sign. Any sign.

The Manifesto

Everyone needs a vanguard at some point in their daily affairs.

Anberlin and Copeland

The news the whole world has been waiting for......

ANBERLIN AND COPELAND ARE COMING TO SINGAPORE JUNE 3RD 2007!!!!!!!

somebody pinch me.

RI soccer

I find it quite disturbing how i can get emo over just about anything.
I was walking home today from town, and then i had to walk over this grass patch to my house, and because i was wearing slippers so i could feel that the grass was damp and cold.
Then my mind started to wander back to my RI days where i would play soccer every Saturday morning, where sometimes the game would be on the field, while the other times, the astro turf. But on whichever surface i would always play barefoot. (Hence the contact with the grass.)
So i started to feel sad from all the memories.

(everyone's going like "ok..................." by now haha)

Amanda Ling

LADIES AND GENTLEMEN!!!
AMANDA LING IS ON THE COVER OF THIS MONTH'S SEVENTEEN!!!!

ORD Blues

Conversations with Alvyn are never dull....except when we're talking about ORD-ing haha. "Chips and Shit" and later, "I feel like Nostalgia" is Alvyn and "You must try to fix me" is me.


You must try to fix me says: (8:46:35 PM)
then i can ord in june

You must try to fix me says: (8:46:36 PM)
hahaha

chips and shit says: (8:46:53 PM)
hahhaa that's like my birthday

chips and shit says: (8:46:59 PM)
no way you're ording in my birthday month~!

You must try to fix me says: (8:47:07 PM)
hahaha

You must try to fix me says: (8:47:14 PM)
ok lah july

chips and shit says: (8:47:45 PM)
that's dan's birthday month so you can't too

You must try to fix me says: (8:48:04 PM)
ok aug is the girls' so cannot

You must try to fix me says: (8:48:09 PM)
than sept is mine and kelv

You must try to fix me says: (8:48:12 PM)
ok lah oct

i feel like nostalgia says: (8:48:44 PM)
err u can't

i feel like nostalgia says: (8:48:47 PM)
cos that's exams month

i feel like nostalgia says: (8:49:26 PM)
and you can't ord in nov or dec too cos it's holidays month and everyone will  be on leave

You must try to fix me says: (8:49:35 PM)
haha go and die lah alvyn

i feel like nostalgia says: (8:49:41 PM)
jan's the new year and feb's chinese new year

You must try to fix me says: (8:49:44 PM)
I AM ORD-ING IN NOV!!!

You must try to fix me says: (8:49:48 PM)
WHOOHOO!!

i feel like nostalgia says: (8:49:49 PM)
so that leaves you with march!

You must try to fix me says: (8:49:57 PM)
leaves YOU with march!

You must try to fix me says: (8:49:57 PM)
haha

i feel like nostalgia says: (8:50:03 PM)
sianzzzzzzzzzz

Child of God

I've been thinking about serving in the Children's Ministry for quite some time now, and last week i told Amanda Tay about it. Today i told Corrine and Sophie and i expressed that maybe i was not spiritually ready. Then Sophie said that I could still serve in the ministry, growing as you serve.
hmm... i shall pray about it.
Please pray for me as well. Thanks!

Btw, Siqi did a great testimony in church today, regarding missions. Brought memories back of Cambodia and COSI in 2004.

Old CD racks

In recognition of our friend, Nostalgia, for old time's sake, here's the top 5 pop acts that we loved (or still love...) but never dared to admit for fear of persecution and subsequent death by stoning or fire. Enjoy.

5. Spice Girls (Yes people i know you still sing their songs when you're high or drunk...I'll tell ya what i want what i really, really want, so tell...)
4. Boyzone (I can't even remember any of their songs except the one they did with for the Mr Bean soundtrack, quite nice actually)
3. Backstreet Boys (get down, get down and move it all around!)
2. Westlife (Too gay to say anything about them)
1. N Sync (Bye bye bye........yeah.....)

Happy holidays

In anticipation of the fast approaching Christmas season, here are my top 5 Christmas movies of all time!

5. Batman Returns (Hands up if you remember it was shot during Christmas!)
4. The Muppet Christmas Carol (You gotta love them.....aye Oscar?)
3. The Grinch who stold Christmas (it's good being a kid again..)
2. Home Alone (A nostalgia favourite)
1. Love Actually (Nothing else compares)

ok hope you guys have enjoyed this comprehensive list which took me like a very long time to come up with ok.

3 and you're out!

It's like....I don't know what's the next step to take?
Look "Inaction" under my dictionary and you'll find the words "yes sir, you are pathetic".
Monday Blues.
It seems as though the sun will not rise tomorrow.

Strike one.

Easter Sunday

Easter Sunday.
Today, Jesus has risen from the dead and has taken his rightful place in Heaven, to the right hand throne of God. And yet, He is still with me now. I feel Jesus in my room.
A while back, i was downstairs and suddenly i heard my dog barking upstairs. So i went up to check and she was barking and howling violently at my room. The lights were off and i couldn't see anything. Then my parents came to see what was the commotion all about. Anyway, we turned on the lights and she went to sniff here and there. In my mind, i wanted to tell my dog that Jesus was visiting me. I know Jesus is always with me, but maybe this time, he revealed himself to my dog? I don't know, i can't really explain it. Anyway, my parents are quite freaked out now and they told me to wake them up if "anything happens".

Anyway, i realise i look up to Amanda Tay a lot. Although she's younger than me by a year, she's got a commitment and dedication to God uncomparable to anyone else i've seen in a while. I guess by her actions, she really reminds me to keep on my path with God. She's strong with God given strength, and a real guide light for others to see Christ in someone. I am very thankful and blessed to have her as a sister in Christ and a great friend.

I guess today was a day of reflections. In particular, my thoughts frequently transported me back to the day I accepted Christ.
10 November 2002.
I had attended church for about 2 months already and in my heart, i knew that i believed in Jesus, that he died for me and my sins, and he rose again. I believed he was the one and only living God. Then i remember something someone said about the prayer of acceptance and i actually didn't know how to pray it or if, for that matter, i could pray individually. So that day, when i went to the fellowship deck, my care group leader, Mae Shaan was there. I asked her about the prayer of acceptance. She said she would pray with me.
And so, where the church library is (before the new block extension was built), in the midst of the poundings and drillings of the construction work, there was a serenity and calmness in my heart, and i prayed to receive Christ as my Lord and Saviour.
Thereafter, only Joyance.
I know that since then, i have stumbled many times in my walk with God. I am still stumbling now. But i know too, that i am growing in Christ daily. I know too, that i am trying to rely on his strength and wisdom to guide all my actions. Above all, Love.
Love. Love. Love. Love. Love. Love. Love.

Lights will guide you home

"Last night i dreamt of Manderley again..."

5 Months have passed since i last stepped foot on Pulau Hantu and Sisters' Island.
And yet, their beauty remains as fresh as the surrounding sea breeze in the ocean of my mind. It is haunting, and often, before i go off to sleep, my thoughts would wander back to the islands and i would start to get all emo (i know you all are going like.."ok here goes shane again blah blah..).
A lot happened on those 2 islands.
On pulau Hantu, i was exhausted beyong all human limitations. My stomach was sucked it because i had vomited my guts out from the sea-sickness while kayaking. But we had a moment's rest and i took in time to look at the distant storm clouds that were approaching. Below, a painted picture of a seemingly calm sea (which i knew was otherwise from first hand experience just shortly before) and the large floating vessels on it. Bliss.
Then the group decided that it was prudent we cover more expedition ground for that day, and hence, we packed up our stuff again, loaded our kayaks and began our journey back to Sisters' Island to spend the night there instead. Along with my clothings, the tents and food, i packed along a dreaded anticipation and a tortured and battered body.
But it turned out to be fine.
I remember paddling along the channel, and Sean and I started singing the RI anthem in 2 parts (harmony and melody) and from there we did not stop singing; songs ranged from Oasis, to Backstreet Boys (don't deny you didn't listen to them when you were kids!!), to Lifehouse and finally our crowd favourite, Mambo hits. I remember laughing even. The one hour journey did not feel as bad as i had imagined.
Reaching Sisters' Island, i was in full spirits. A few of us were playing in the bay after we had anchored the kayaks, and the beauty of the sky and the sea, the sea and the sky captivated me in full force. I was mesmerized to a point of ethereal intervention. To this day, I simply cannot forget the image. It haunts me.
I have to go back....I must go back....

"Tears stream down your face..."







Welcome to the beauty of Nature.

Hear you me

"You give us some place to go." - Jimmy Eat World

The streetlamps flicker on again on the cold night,
and i feel nothing but Warmth.

Good Friday

When i saw the live theatrics of the cruxifixion of Jesus in church today, i was left shaken...quite badly.
Then i started to cry.
I guess it just really hit me hard when i actually saw, or rather had a small taste of what Jesus must have gone through during the day of his cruxifixion. Then it really dawned on me that here was my God, giving everything to me, and i have most of the time, given Him nothing in return. Nothing, except empty promises and repeated sinning. I felt really ashamed and foolish, and i realised that deep in my heart i was crying out for forgiveness.
It struck me particularly hard when Pastor Joel repeatedly quoted Jesus' last words to the sinner on his left.
"I tell you the truth, today you will be with me in paradise".

Good Friday is the day when Jesus Christ died for all mankind. He took upon Himself all the world's sin and consequences of sin, and brought himself to the deepest depths of hell to suffer for us. God gave us his one and only Son, to come to Earth to live and to die for us, for our sins. He has died, so that we may live. We have been forgiven.

Good Friday is the day when Jesus Christ died for me.

"And we're so amazed, and we give you praise for the power of the cross"

Zouk 04/05.04.2007

Last night was, to put it simply, spectacular.
It was everything I could ask for.
Kick ass music, awesome company and a blast of a time making fools of ourselves grooving to the mambo beats.
I like going clubbing with Lucas, cuz he's a hell of a funny guy. Plus, i've known him since sec 1 and yea like we're not afraid to be crazy in front of each other so it was like one dumbass move after another. Plus we're very close, though not gay close, although sometimes Lucas might like to think otherwise. (haha...joking joking, Lucas please don't stop treating me to food!!)
His friends, Jamie and the rest of the guys, were brilliant!
I met Ping Qi and her friends also, and in the end, the whole big ging gang (is that how you spell it??) of us danced together. And yea by the way, Ping Qi and her friend COULD DANCE, and i don't mean swaying your body from side to side. (or to the left to the left...)
At 2.30am, we were like "ok ok, last song..."
at 4.00am, we were still going like "ok ok serious serious, last song"
haha i reached home at 4.30am.
Slept at 5am.
woke up at 7.40am.
Like I said before,
welcome to Euphoria.

Unsung

I'm no hero.

Hide me from the world.

The Good Fight

Yay!!
I love Mich's latest post!
don't you agree, Kelvin?

Faith

Shakespeare once proclaimed to the world,
"Be not afraid of Greatness; some are born great, some achieve greatness and some have greatness thrust upon 'em".

It seems at this point, only greatness of strength and faith shall be the guiding light for greatness to come.

They put a man on the moon

A leap of faith.
Man cannot fly.
You must try to fix me.

I'm so afraid.