Three strikes

One. Relative Velocity. You first. I'm still in thought.

Two. I pass. You're there. You first. I start.

Three. You dance. I struggle. I first. You follow. I leave. Bliss.

Three strikes. In or out?

block leave week 2

Here's a rundown for the past week.

Monday- Went with Raymond for his business thing which i eventaully didn't join but at least i got a free bowl of noodles. It's not frequent that he treats people.

Tuesday- Had NYDC with kelvin for dinner. I am truly blessed to have a friend like him.

Wednesday- Went out with Lucas for his business thing which i eventually didn't join but at least i got a free Mutabak from him.

Thursday- Went out with Kelvin, Raymond and Mei Jian. Had dinner at Fish n Co. Saw our pretty waitress. It was so so great to see Mei Jian again.

Friday- Went to camp to clear out our stuff. Then left for dinner with Sarah, Ryan and Debbie. Was really great seeing them again. Mei Jian, Kelvin and Alvyn joined us later. Was a great, great night. Met Sarah's friends Bryan and Marziya. They're awesome.

Saturday- Alvyn, Kelvin, Raymond and Wei kee came to my house to chill. Then we went to J8 for dinner at ajisen. Feel so blessed to have them.

Sunday- Spent the day with my family, especially Ryan, because i bought this new game, Medieval 2, and we were helping each other to play the game (it's really really hard because you gotta take care of every single aspect of your kingdom, you're like literally a king) .

On top of that, Man Utd won in the FA and Singapore won Malaysia.

It has been an awesome week, spent with people whom i love and cherish. That's not to say that those people whom i didn't spent the past week with are not people whom i cherish. I thank God for my life, it is simply so wonderful. Some kind of wonderful.

p.s. You stood out, the only face i saw in a sea of. A tower yonder the horizon is seen.

don't try this at home

I tell you, i'm never going any place for a 'dinner' sugegsted by either raymond or lucas or any other business minded friend again. twice, twice i got conned. first raymond said he wanted to bring me to this great place in clark quay. so i went, and in the end had to go for some business thing which i didn't join in the end. in fact, i was firm at the start when i said i wouldn't join. the only good part was when we went to liang court and i got my jap dramas. then today, lucas asked me to go to aljunied for some 'great' food. then when we got there, he was like "actually the dinner's not the main thing..." and i was like "shit...."
so yeah to anybody else who wants to try it on me...DON'T DON'T DON'T DON'T!

in other business news, it has been proven that if you read my blog, you save money. for example, i blogged that i was going to KL. Daniel didn't read the post and called me when i was there. so there he wasted an overseas call. next, frederic also didn't read it and msged me so he has to bear the cost too. therefore reading my blog will help save you money.

p.s. i am takuya kimura's biggest fan (it's not really true i'm just trying to piss off the no.2 fan, michelle wong yu min

time and confusion- anberlin

Live for today
We'll dream tomorrow
We've got big plans in sight
We'll take this city and by nightfall...
The bright lights are calling

Everything is going our way
Everything is just as we've planned
This is our future (from what we've heard)
And i've still got your hand

And it feels like we could last forever
And im not doing to do this alone

When memories fade
We've got each other
When time and confusion collide
Singin' I hold it all when I hold you
When friends walk other ways
We've got each other
I hold it all when I hold
I hold it all when I hold you

We fell on hard times
This isn't the ideal
Miles from home
Doing the best we can (Best that we can)

I won't do this without you
I won't do this without you so take heart
'Cause you know that you have mine

And it feels like we could last forever
And im not doing to do this alone

When memories fade
We've got each other
When time and confusion collide
Singin' I hold it all when I hold you
When friends walk other ways
We've got each other
I hold it all when I hold
I hold it all when I hold

It's not about the money we make
It's about the passions that we ache for
What makes your heart beat faster
Tell me now what does your body long after

I don't care now where we live
It's not where, or what, or who we were with
I just need you in my life
So promise me again...

When memories fade
We've got each other
When time and confusion collide
Singin' I hold it all when I hold you
When friends walk other ways
We've got each other
I hold it all when I hold
I hold it all when I hold You

jap

hello guys,
the end of the world is nigh.
i've caught the michelle wong disease and guys, take a deep breath and don't be too shocked, i'm so into Jap stuff now!
i went to malaysia and i bought this jap serial, GTO, which i haven't watched in a long time last time they showed it on channel 8 and i was looking for it all over singapore and i couldn't find it so when i found it in KL i was like whoohoo i was so happy and i'm hyperventilating and ranting on and on and on..
so ok then as i was watching it i foud myself thinking oh mich's 3483278 blog posts on jap stuff and i found myself sub-consciously learning the language as i watched. it feels so cool to speak jap.

Taking a dashboard confessional with Chaucer

Mine eyes seeth thou charging toward me. Upon thy steed a raging torrent erupts forth. The sun be unkind, she shines her consent over thy shining armour, reflecting upon mine rusted metal. Mine donkey neighs in discontent, as if to mock his master, the equilibrium imbalance much distresses him. Thy sword clothes himself with the sharpest edge, and mine be blunt.

does thou, mine princess, believeth in things so impossible?

The things we'll never know.
Rapid Hope Loss.

leaving on a coach to msia

hey guys,
turns out that i'll be going to KL after all! i'm leaving tomorrow on a private jet (actually a coach..) landing in a private airport (actually probably some random bus terminal near KL) in the afternoon. i'll be there till this friday afternoon..not sure what time yet..this is a good reflection of how well prepared i am haha. also haven't packed yet....just decided to go yesterday actually haha. going with jon lai, then meeting up with the rest of the sqaud guys on wednesday.
erm yea so if any of you guys and girls want anything just message me yea? i'll try to find it. if that thing is the last piece and it's something both you and i want, i won't buy it, least it breaks down the walls of our friendship into rubble, and dark days will follow us for the rest of our miserable lives. (erm...ok ... moment)
i have auto roaming so i am still contactable. ok unless i blog tonight...bye guys!

Lin's farewell

The gang at my placet

THE GANG

dreams

there i go again....backing off...
when will i learn to fight for what i want?
when will i learn to believe?

some quotes

i'm not just ready yet...not ready to give a post on OCT life for the past 10 months. Too many memories, too many good memories...too much joyance i will not likely experience again in my life. An end to bunk life, an end to communal living, an end to all the small things that has made up my life for the past 10 months, that is the OCT course.
as for now, i want to live in some of the quotes i can remember from here and there. please Lord, just let me live here for a while longer. let me live in denial for this moment, that on sunday night i will still groan and whine that i have to book in, drag my heavy ass bag into camp, to be greeted by the lights of my room and upon opening the door, Ernest, Frederic and Wei Yang. i can't think about this for now, i'm not ready not, not just yet.

this is what YEE KIAT said:
"so after 10 months here, i realise that life is not a bed of roses. actually life is a bed of king koil, then after that it's parades and all the training."

"so this past 10 months has seen some of the best times of my life, actually that's not really a good reflection on my life.."

"so this past 10 months, actually i also got nothing much to say lah, don't really know what to say also..."

this is what FREDERIC said:

"this is for the juniors, guys, you all can do anything you all want here, just get ready apology letters.."

this is what Alvin sadi:

"Juniors, actually i've written a lot of apology letters..."


p.s. you are perfect, you just don't know it.

starlight

STARLIGHT- MUSE

Far away
The ship is taking me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die

Starlight
I will be chasing the starlight
Until the end of my life
I don't know if it's worth it anymore

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms

My life
You electrify my life
Let's conspire to ignite
All the souls that would die just to feel alive

But I'll never let you go
If you promised not to fade away
Never fade away

Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms

Far away
The ship is taking me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die

And I'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away

Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms
I just wanted to hold

low down of music in 2006

Hey everyone, i thought i'd do a roll down of the hits and misses in the music industry in 2006. As you all probably know, this will be a very biased list and anyone who doesn't like it can just go and marry Britney.

SURPRISE OF THE YEAR: Justin Timberlake. Who knew the yuppie kid from the mickey mouse club could come out from his fag boyband phase to emerge as one of the most insane dancers of his generation. His new album is also surprisingly (like duh) good, with sexyback and my love already making waves everywhere. Just one question, how many of you actually thought a different meaning of 'sexyback' before you all actually looked at the lyrics or heard it like 93849389 times over and over again.

DISAPPOINTMENT OF THE YEAR: Snow Patrol. In their last album, Final Straw, they were simply awesome. 'Run' was a classic, an instant hit. Then, everything went going down. Not that 'Eyes Open' was bad, in fact, it was quite good actually...then Singapore Idol spolit it. 'Chasing Cars' became the anthem of practically every event, every romantic scene, every advertisment, everywhere! My friends, beware commercialism, it doth mock the meat it feeds on. Commericialism destroys. Look at Coldplay and you'll see. Jimmy Eat World escaped it and went back to obscurity, and hey, they're better than ever now with 'Futures'. Moral of the story: don't do it for the money.

WHO TO LOOK OUT FOR IN 2007: Well firstly, Muse is coming to Singapore and they're terrific! Check out 'Starlight' and 'Time is running out' by them, it will certainly be worth your time. Wish i could go to their concert though, it's simply too expensive, unless anyone (Alvyn?) wants to sponsor me. Ok next, my friends, check out New Found Glory and their new album 'Coming Home'. With great tracks like 'Too good to be' and 'Hold my hand', the album's soon to be a classic in the indie world. Check out Daphne Loves Derby too. They're a realtively unknown band but hey their music's right up there with the big boys. Of course i'd rather the name of the band be 'Kate Beckinsale Loves Shane'. Finally, Anberlin gonna be the biggest thing that will hit you in the face in 2007. Possibly one of the best bands in the scene now, alongside Taking Back Sunday, Anberlin's gonna be big, mark my words, BIG.

I'M SO TIRED OF THEM: Throw out Black Eyed Peas. Enough of them already! My Chemical Romance is highly overrated.They're just a band for Indie wannabes in Singapore to say, "hey i know MCR so i'm cool and emo and indie and all and pop and err..is pop considered indie? does radio play indie stuff...actually i know nuts about indie and i'm just trying to pose here." And as shocking as this might sound, Paris Hilton and singing...erm...it ain't nicole and paris.

THE CLASSICS: Inject yourselves with a dose of Taking Back Sunday, a mixture of Dashboard Confessional and Death Cab For Cutie, one pill of Dishwalla, a concortion of The WHO and ACDC and finally a brew of Hawthorne Heights, Motion City Soundtrack, Our Lady Peace and Lifehouse.

ok i hope this was quite a comprehensive report about 2006 and the upcoming 2007!
but hey wait...aren't we forgetting something??! oh yes! it's Alvyn's beloved Keane!!! ok yes guys, please do check them out. plus, they have a higher chance of coming to singapore than any of the mentioned bands save Muse. ok cheers!

shane

so impossible

So she says
Everyone's going to the party,
won't you come if I come
with a friend for your friend?
I'd be so pleased to see you
out of the classroom wearing the smile that I'll bring you.
I was hoping to learn a few things like..
Do you do you like dishing the dirt
on the whole class &
talking the big smack &
playing the fool &
wearing all of the latest fashions
or bucking the new trends
wearing your old threads.
If you like taking a cup of coffee in the evening.
These are a few things that I'd like to know
that I'd like to know
So I said
I've been scheduled to work but I'll call in
and my friend isn't busy
he'd be happy to join me
and maybe my friend
and your friend
will hit it off or maybe we will...

I'm dying to know
do you do you like dreaming of things
so impossible or only the practical
or ever the wild or waiting through all your bad bad days
just to end them with
someone you care about
and do you like making out
and long drives and brown eyes
and guys that just
don't quite fit in
yeah do you like them
So yes, I'll see you there.

Guys that don't quite fit in....so, do you dream of things so impossible? well... i do...

starlight

oh... so this is perfection...

a paperthin confessional at POP

I still can't get over the fact that chris carraba has a girlfriend.
hmm...that explains a lot i guess...like dusk and summer.
nOoOoOoOoO this can't be...his songs are supposed to be about break-ups!!! so how can he write emo songs if he's happy?!?!
not that i'm wishing the worst for him or anything.

in other music news, i am really addicted to Anberlin. first it was dance, dance christa paffgen, then it was audrey, start the revolution, now it's paperthin hymn. as an illustration, when i woke up this morning at 6am in camp, my first thought after "please please please let this be a book out day...please please let this be friday.." and "oh man i need just 5 minutes more of sleep", was the tune of paperthin hymn going through my head. this continued for the rest of the day. you just wasted at least 30 seconds of your life reading a really redundant fact of my life.

in some more music news, does anyone wanna buy me an ipod video?!??

ok in camp news, i'm passing out next week!! to be exact, on the 11th of january. i'm so happy, beyond words. proud would be a word that comes into the picture as well. can't wait for it. though i would be sad to leave all my mates in camp. Zul was quite funny today. we were sitting down in the morning at 7am waiting to draw arms, and zul went like, "wah thank god it's friday man...at least can book out today.." and i, being really bored, told him, "erm...zul...it's thursday today..." and immediately there was this bewielded look on his face. "No NO no, it can't be thursday today! we booked in on wednesday right? how can..." then i went like, "dude..it's thursday..are you ok..? ask jon!" zul then turned to big jon and asked him what day it was while i mouthed the word 'thursday' to big jon. zul was a traumatised boy that morning, till we told him it was in fact, friday, slightly later.

in 'so impossible' news, i want to meet Kate Beckinsale.

in 'this is so going to piss off all my army friends' news, i have block leave from 11th to 28 jan.

in 'this will probably just piss alvyn off' news, alyvn, my good friend, you do not ORD this year. (: you'll get leave though whoohoo!

ok more to come tomorrow.

2006 in review

I waited until i got into a really emo mood to do this.
2006 in review.

This year, i can safely say that i lost myself. Looking back in perspective, i can say that i don't really like the person i was this year. It somehow felt like it wasn't me, it wasn't how i would act, how i would behave, how i would deal with things, how i would treat things, how i would prioritise things and people and how, well basically, i wanted to live my life. A lot of mistakes this year, which means a lot of learning and growing up. Many people i have to say sorry to, many mistakes i have to apologise for.
Indifference. It was a plague that killed me torturously slow. Ignorance. He was my playmate. A needle and a thread that wove my destruction.

This year, especially during a the middle months, i neglected most of my friends. Even people down at the hood like the class guys i did not give as much attention to as i did before. I guess it wasn't anyone's fault but mine, cuz i didn't prioritise my time properly and i was simply giving too much attention to one particular direction that i simply ignored the rest. North was God. East was my family. West my friends. Everything was going south. So for this year, i'm gonna concentrate and prioritise my life for these 3 groups of people that have always been there for me, though i don't always outwardly appreciate them. for 2007, i wanna live a servanthood life. I guess God has been constantly trying to get that across to my thick skull in 2006 but yea i guess i was just too ignorant and stubborn. Anyway so yea i'm gonna give my best for God, my family and my friends this coming year.

Speaking of friends, here's a big shoutout to all my loved ones.

ALVYN- Thank you for always paying for our meals, cab fares, movie tickets, christmas presents, birthday presents, hotel accomodations etc etc. Please don't get the wrong idea that we're after your money! we all love you man (though not in THAT way..i'm sorry). Thanks for always being so encouraging and positve. Keane...ok...rocks!

KELVIN- Thanks for all the laughs buddy! Although you are most of the time late, hmm...i don't really have a continuation for this....so please be earlier next time!! haha.. Class guys wouldn't be class guys if Kelv wasn't in it. We would be missing tons of jokes, epigrams, teasings, whinings yaddah yaddah. Let's gay again in a hotel room soon dude. I miss England.

RAYMOND- One of the most reliable guys you can find on the face of this earth, thanks for always being there for us man. In 2006, we found an untapped resource of wealth in Raymond's bank account for we're looking to utilise it in 2007! See this space for more updates! Raymond's such a funny and lame guys lah. "hey upgrade your humour version to blah blah".

WEI KEE- What would i do without my gay buddy? The ultimate of all entertainment buffs, thanks for bringing such humble joy to our hearts (i know wei kee must be going like "what the crap is shane saying here?!?!" ) I hope you get to marry Jude Law in 2007! So looking forward to catching all the fantastic movies 2007 will bring us!

DANIEL- Firstly, we need to hang out soon!!! I can't wait to get Dan into the weelock place Fish and Co. for lunch someday. It would be such a blast! Daniel's fun, bombastic personality is missed by me. Hope everything goes well for you in camp man, my Raven company buddy! Only less than 1 year to go and we ORD!!! December 8th. Counting down the days man!! God bless!

MICHELLE- Thanks for all your valuable advice last year, espcially during..yea. You've always been there for me in 2006, just like you've always been there for me in JC and council. I am so thankful for our friendship, along with all your self-amusing and (surprisingly) entertaining pyrimid games and guess the song. Really glad i got to spend the countdown with you and the class guys. Ok don't stress to much for your uni life. Take it as it comes.

MELISSA AND IVAN- I have to declare we are the best band in the world. We are so good, compared to bullshit (haha ok that was a line from Tenacious D). Anyway guys i just wanna say that i think we're constantly improving and if we let God take the direction, i'm sure we'll do fine. The gig last year was just the continuation of many more gigs to come, i sure. To Melissa, you're embarking on a new journey with someone now and i hope that all will go well. Let God guide you. Don't forget us or i will murder you. Then Ivan and I can sing 'How to save a life'. haha lame. Ivan, less than a year to ORD!!! Just suck it up man. We'll get through this!

SARAH- I'm so, so glad you're back. It's been a blast catching up with you. Thanks to you and your advice, i had plently or direction and sight to work with in times when things were looking down. Thanks for always being there for me even though you're in Australia. I'll definitely come down to visit you sometime soon, maybe at the end of the year, after i ORD. Your friendship means eternity to me and yea as i said before, i woudn't trade it for anything in the world. Keep the faith going strong yea!

RYAN- It's been great knowing you, and yea don't worry, i totally understand what you're saying...the accent don't matter. I hope the weather down here stays cooler for a while more, at least till you go back down under. Uni life here's not bad, i hope you enjoy it, mate. Wishing you and Sarah all the best! God Bless!

DEBBIE- I know you have to go to work early tomorrow, but yea think about it, it's only 3 days to the weekend! Sleep at your desk! Listen to Anberlin, Jack's Mannequin and Muse over and over again! Do anything to pass your time in office quick! I am truly gald to have found someone with such a huge passion for music, and someone who's so easy and comfortable to talk to (haha refer to 'girl phobia' post). I hope you enjoy the Muse concert! i hope Dashboard comes to Singapore! And Taking Back Sunday too! (though it's a long shot) Please update me if they're performing in Australia! Alright stay cool, and say NO to music commericalism.

DEE- Thanks for not forgetting your brother dave here. I wish you all the best when you get back your A level results later on. May you get the results you desire and get into the uni you want. Thanks for listening to my problems when i had them. You've been a great listening ear. Good luck with your love life as well haha.

EMIKO- I hope you do well for your A levels! Have faith in yourself cuz I have faith in you, and i'm sure your loved ones do as well. It's been great knowing you and just know that you have my support for msu and whatever path you choose.

ALL MY SQUAD FRIENDS AND BMT FRIENDS. NAVIN, BEN EU, BEN T, ZUL, GUO BEI, BEN LEE, DARRAS, EJ, SUF, ERNEST, ASHRAF, WEI YANG, FREDERIC, FARHIN, KHAIRY, KENNY, JON LAI, JON NG, MARC, ZINC, NICK, SEAN, YONG KANG AND CHIRAQ. I LOVE YOU ALL DEARLY AND I WILL WRITE A DETAILED THANK YOU NOTE TO YOU GUYS VERY SOON! TO OCTs, WE'RE GONNA PASS OUT FINALLY!!! WHOOHOO!!
NO MORE "WELCOME TO THE SUCK!"

2007 looks to be a great year, well, at least i'm gonna try to make it great with God's help. Humble servanthood life, humble servanthood life, humble...

2007